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Once upon a time, there was an activity held on a usual English 12 class on a usual day. This activity was about groups of people choosing some negative adjectives that they think will fit your personality. I was described as spaced out, lonely, and dull. Interesting. Everything except the lonely part hit the bull’s eye, since I have got great friends, but who thinks their friends suck anyway? In any case, there was a follow-up activity the next class. It was about the word that you hate being associated with you. Being the dull person that I am, I found it hard to figure out the word that I hate being associated with the most. I have been called lame, killjoy, loser, shy, quiet, crazy, evil, vile, tactless, boring, ******, ******, *** ** * ******, ******, *******, ***,and finally,  ***** ******. I somewhat hoped that one of these words would ignite something, but none of them worked. So I thought about what I call myself, weak. Yes, that is it.I pertain to weak not in the sense that I am not able to lift heavy objects or run as fast as other people, but in the sense that I lack the will to do something that has to be done, like the blog entries in the said English 12 class, studying for tests, and such. As a result, I get a really bad grade, then regret, frustration, then a depression for a few hours *Sigh*. Then when the next essay, exam, or task comes along the cycle is repeated again. It is pretty sad, but I cannot seem to get away from this cycle. I have got television, games and my laptop to thank for that.Luckily, thanks to some coaxing by my friends (See? they are great), I manage to become “strong” enough to do my work. Sometimes, we even have group study sessions so that we can make sure no one bums. Pretty shallow? It probably is, but since I am a bum by nature (both of my parents work hard but they are lazy too), he difficulty of forcing myself to work is equivalent to abstaining from sweets for the whole Lenten season. Although, I am getting better at doing my tasks when they should be done. This entry is proof of that! Unlike the past two entries, I submitted this one before the deadline. Hooray for me. Hopefully, I also start making B quality work. Why not an A you ask? Not going to happen, writing does not like me.